Day 22 of 40 Days of Grace – Overcoming Fear With Joy
Day 22 – I have a confession. Fear almost choked out the opportunity to experience grace for the day yesterday. Fear about how I was going to find the time to do all the things I need to do for my book launch. The Facebook posts, the Twitter, launch party, not to mention the local marketing, and finding all the arc readers I need. I hate feeling like I’m bugging people, when people really are kind and willing to help. And I feel exposed on social media, at least on Facebook and don’t feel like I have much that is noteworthy to share. So it’s stressful for me.
But there I was holding the print proof of my book in my hand and reading over it and it felt like work. I’d lost the joy I’d felt when I opened the box and squealed with happiness over the chance to hold My. Own. Book. In my hand, to stroke the cover and see a lifelong dream come true. To see the beautiful and gracious job that Lighthouse Publishing of the Carolinas had done putting Rumors and Promises together. When I remembered the joy I had as I first picked it up, my spirit lifted.
This is your book. This is your dream come true. What a privilege it is to hold it in your hands and read it. And as the thoughts came to me, along with the calming of the Holy Spirit, I was able to recognize how fear was clouding the wonder of God’s gift to me. His grace washed over me—forgiveness for worrying about tomorrow, for grumbling over my lack of ability instead of wondering at how He will enable me.
Thank you, Lord, for this humble moment, for touching me with Your grace and joy.
What are you allowing in your life to crowd your joy and cause worry?